How are you feeling? As for me, I’m fine. I have been working hard, but the beautiful thing is that I am accomplishing things. I’m getting my school work done. I have been working out and saving money. I don’t date nor party. I just stay home and play video games on the computer. Thinking about it. I think I said this stuff already. So what else should I write about? I don’t know. M coworker is still bothering me. She constantly in my face several times a day–attention seeking. No one else does this but her, and she’s starting to stand out. I am getting sexually attracted to her a little more, but I continue to ignore her the best way I can. I am mean as I allow myself to be. One time I jumped at her(sort of spoke angrily). She left a note on my desk asking me to come see her. It seemed like she wanted to show me that she was sad. She seemed sad for a few days. I don’t know. It’s all some sort of act. I just don’t trust her.
I still don’t like my boss either. She’s ridiculous and not really trustworthy herself.
I missed Memo. So I sent her a message saying, “hi.” I didn’t trust her for a while either. I don’t know. You just can’t put 100% trust in someone I feel like. Emotions sway. She seemed happy to hear from me, though. I haven’t told her that I am moving,yet. I would love to continue our time that we spend together, in Vietnam. She’s cool. I want to keep her around. I know that she would be happy to come there.
I have a good feeling about Vietnam, and I know that things will work out. I am patiently waiting but I am loosing patience. I just want to go. I know that things will work out.
Other than the stuff that I wrote above, I want to tell you that I found a really good book that is helping me with my meditation. The book is called “Turning The Mind Into an Ally” The insight and instructions it gives is great.
Take care !