03/24/16

Dear Journal,

How are you feeling? As for me, I’m fine. The past few days have gone by well. I have money, now, so I am a bit happier and ready to flirt.

A dream I had a week ago still bothers me. It was a horrible dream. I had a dream that I was at a party and I wanted to beat some guy up and kill him because he hid my camera to play with me, I guess, but I was still very upset and was getting ready to punch him. Then my brother, who was there, jumped in and was surprised I was ready to fight and very surprised at my actions. He tried to intervene, but I thought he was ready to fight me too, so I put up my guards and started yelling at him, “Let’s go !” He said “woah!” and reached out to shake my hand and then he pulled me in for a hug and a kiss on the cheek. His eyes were very sincere and maybe showed a sign of hurt perhaps.

This dream bothers me so much. I think I do walk around on edge. I get angry easily, though that’s known to very few people. I always have my eye open for a fight, and I”m sure it’s because of the martial arts. Today, I told myself that I should just find a way to spread more love instead of being ready to fight all the time, you know?

Anyways, that’s all I’m going to write for now. Take care !

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One thought on “03/24/16

  1. Glad that you realized that maybe it’s good to look for another outlet like spreading love! It’s really hard to admit areas that we are weak in. Proud of you.

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